Sometimes I wonder what it really means to be totally vulnerable. Does it mean talking about everything I’m going through, or sharing all the things my mind constantly processes? By definition, vulnerability is the willingness to expose oneself emotionally, to risk being hurt, misunderstood, or judged. Maybe the extent of vulnerability is up for debate, but one thing I know is that I’ve had to process a lot lately—especially with my eyesight.

It’s tough. By the grace of God, I’ve been able to keep building websites, tending to The Academy, and handling my business. From the outside looking in, it might seem like I’ve got everything together. My daughter sees me writing blogs and handling everything, and to her, it probably seems like I’m not going through much at all. I get it. It’s the grace of God.

I’m about 10 days out from surgery, and if I’m being honest, I expected things to be much better by now. But my eyesight is sort of the same, though now I see more light and more colors coming through. I’ve learned to use writing as my outlet, a way to refocus my attention. The other day, I wrote 11 blogs in two days, and it felt like a release—like the words were pouring out of me because I needed them to.

To be honest, I’m not sure if this blog will ever see the light of day. Maybe I won’t post it, or maybe I will. Not because someone else might be going through the exact same thing, but because maybe they’re going through something of their own. Maybe they need to hear this.

Last night, I sat at my desk and looked into the mirror. I could barely see myself. It does something to you, you know? I could make out a figure, but not clearly. It’s been a tough journey—one that I wouldn’t have chosen—but I remind myself that God doesn’t give us more than we can handle. I can feel His presence with me, guiding me, comforting me through it all.

And in that, I find peace.

God Bless The Entrepreneur